I will never forget the day I discovered I was pregnant with Emmy. Chris and I had just taken a trip to Mexico; Sawyer was 9 months old when we left. The week after we returned from our trip, I ran into my gynecologist at the grocery store, and also at the pool. I had never seen her outside of her office before, in all the time I knew her, even though we lived in the same town and she was a member of the gym I worked at. I knew that He was telling me something. I just knew. But it was too early to take a test, and believe me we were not planning on having our kids that close in age. The very first day I could take a test, I purchased the box with all 3. I took one. Positive. Two. Positive. Three. Positive. Yep. I was pregnant. I was already clearly hormonal, had just finished brestfeeding Sawyer a couple months before that and was all out of whack! I called my best friend in a panic and drove to her work and talked to her.... I went home and tried to calm myself down. Chris came home from work and sat in the office on the computer for a bit. I gave Sawyer a bath and put him to bed. I paced the house and made laps... walking into the office with the intention of telling Chris, and then blurting out something else and walking out. I did that a few times.
Finally, I went for it.
"So...... I think I am pregnant."
"Well, I have just had this weird hunch and then I ran into Dr. Y in two different places, and I feel like it's a message."
Chris looks at me like I am crazy.
"And also all three of these tests here are positive."
I present him with the tests.
"Are you mad?"
"Am I mad?? Why would I be mad?!?! We are going to have another baby! You don't ever have to worry about me being mad about that.... unless of course it's someone else's."
It wasn't someone else's, so big sigh of relief from me!
|Here we are when I was 5 months pregnant, celebrating Chris' 30th birthday. See, we were happy, even though crazed.|
So you can see I was nervous and apprehensive and wasn't totally ready yet. And then I wanted a boy. My baby boy number 1, Sawyer, was the dream baby. He was SO good, the baby for which everyone wishes. Clearly, it was because he was a boy and I needed another one of those. When I discovered I was having a girl, I again wasn't ready and was worried. How would I handle a girl? Oh the drama!
But Emmy came along, and our life has changed so much for the better. Over the past 6 years, I have watched her grow, charming men all along the way. ;) I have watched Sawyer become a fabulous big brother, sensitive to girls and the needs of others, and I am sure that is because of his little sister.
|He was trying to teach her how to roll over here... He was a fountain of knowledge he wanted to pass on, yet he was only 19 months old.|
She has made our lives more colorful, full of song, spirit, creativity, and spunk.
I may have been nervous about having a little girl, but now I feel completely blessed. And now, just because this is my blog and I can, I am going to subject you of some of my favorite photos of Emmy when she was smaller...
I had so much fun going through my pictures of Emmy the other night. She has grown so much! And oh how I love those squishy cheeks and pudgy thighs!
Now, I promised you all that I would show you her reaction to the dollhouse bookcase. Her birthday is today, of course, but Chris has to work this evening so we decided to celebrate a night early and gave her her gifts. I stacked the other gifts inside the house...
Here she is checking it out...
Emmy, there will come a day when you will be old enough to read my blog, and I am sure you will look back on these posts to learn about me, to learn about you, and to learn about our family. I hope that what you see most is how special you are to me, and how loved you are by all of us. You may have caught me totally by surprise in the beginning, but now to think of life without you would be to never have known the warmth of sunshine on my face..... unimaginable. I love you, baby girl.